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2008-03-29T16:08:12Z

As I stepped out into the bright sunlight from the darkness of the movie house, I had only two things on my mind: Paul Newman.
Oh, and a ride home.

Me and my sister decided that we need to make a parody of The Outsiders. That movie is soo perfect for making fun of. Even though it's a great movie.
All the hot 80's actors are in it, which is probably why it's so amazing.
C. Thomas Howell (The Hitcher), Rob Lowe (West Wing or something), Tom Cruise, Matt Dillon (Rumble Fish), Ralph Macchio (The Karate Kid), Patrick Swayze (Dirty Dancing), and a few people no one has ever heard (or cared) about before.
It's still great, though. I sure do like cats.

So, I have chores I need to get around to doing so I can go see Molly or something.
This weekend is going to go by fast, I think D:

I'm not coutning these posts anymore Dx Anyway, some ranting about my good old friend, Molly S.

2008-02-27T21:42:11Z

Molly S, Molly S, Molly S (we still need a nickname for her D:). She thought she could go and talk about me without me finding out.

At least we have one understanding: We pretty much hate eachothers guts now.

SHE tells Keena that I told that I think her self-done nose piercing looks like shit on her. Eh, WRONG. In reality (where I tend to live), I said that it looks like shit, as in it looked infected, and I told her that she should go to a professional to check it out and make sure that it's not infected. Somehow she warps that into "Shayna thinks this piercing looks bad on me! :( Pity me!".

Then, she says that I think I am perfect. While this may be true, I can't recall telling her that I think I'm the best thing since sliced bread. In fact, I'm very NOT confident (sorry, but that's pretty much the extent of my vocabulary).

At least I'M not sleeping with an 18 year old, and I'M not smoking weed, and I'M not trying to be scene, no matter how much I declaire that I HATE PEOPLE CALLING ME SCENE AND YET I DYE MY HAIR BLACK AND PUT BLOTCHES OF HOT NEON COLORS IN IT, WEAR BIG SUNGLASSES, GET FACIAL PIERCINGS, AND WEAR BRIGHT COLORS WITH BLACK AND HELLO KITTY /caps. What happened to hippie Molly? I guess she died along with her V!rG!n!tYy.

Then Keena defends me, saying that I don't think I'm perfect, I'm just confident with myself and what I say. Half true; I am VERY confident about what I say, because I'm observant, and usually right. Sorry, but it's the truth. Molly goes on to end the conversation by saying "Well, she's too confident for my liking".
Cause I mean, God forbid someone isn't good enough for Molly's liking.

/fail.

So basically, all the weed and illegal sex and partying and other stuff has screwed up her brain, and she now thinks that I am the devil and she is the godliest thing on this planet.

But I am right.
Her boyfriend does drugs, as much as she wants to believe he doesn't. He's most likely using her, cause she's a pretty and easy freshmen girl. I defend that by the fact that she was willing to get down on her knees (if you catch my drift) after knowing him for, um, about 5 days. Yeahhh. And then screwing her after a week. She won't admit that I was right (and actually got mad at me for saying so) about how she is just starting with little drugs, saying "She knows her limits", like we all haven't heard THAT one before, and how she will eventually want it more often, and then she'll want to try other drugs, and before she knows it, all this "experimenting" has gotten her addicted. Goodbye life.

Oh, and she is a vegitarean again. Okay, here's a little rule about being a vegiterean: YOU CAN'T EAT MEAT.
Do you understand? NO MEAT. NO CHICKEN. NO PORK. NOTHING THAT WAS ONCE LIVING AND BREATHING. You can't be a vegitarean for 2 years, decide that you're in th mood for a chicken sandwich, and then immediatly switch back to being a vegitarean once you're through. That isn't how it works, you MORON.

God, I pretty much hate her now. Safe to say.

Now, let's see how long until she figures out I know.
Didn't even last a day without me not knowing about her talking about me. Not even 2 hours. I have people.

010. ~Survey whoa.

2008-02-27T02:38:12Z

Basically so.
Read that discription and tell me that it is so not me. Cause it totally is.

me and Molly had a deep and wonderfully mushy conversation today about how much she loves Heath Ledger and how much I love Jonathan Brandis, and you had to have been there, guys.

Llamaluvr373 (5:57:22 PM): i'd be happy to watch every lame ass chuck norris/jon brandis with you

Llamaluvr373 (5:57:29 PM): every single one

THAT IS LOVE, YOU GUYS.
Not just any friend will watch Sidekicks with you. Not just any friend.

Yeah, mini-update. More to come. Later. I like to keep you guys on your feet. Is she gonna post another entry tomorrow? Next week? In an hour?
WHO KNOWS.

009. ~Molly S. Argues with Yo Billy, and Runs Away Because Shayna is Always Right.

2008-02-16T02:49:44Z

Got in a fight w/ Molly S. Read convo.
I was only yelling at her for her own good.

I'm HerroWaru.

HerroWaru (9:14:41 PM): u brk up w/ alx yt?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:03 PM): noooo

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:05 PM): i was stupid.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:15 PM): that kid chris is only gonna get me back in trouble

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:19 PM): like he did before

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:20 PM): i don't want that

HerroWaru (9:15:23 PM): Who?

HerroWaru (9:15:28 PM): For what?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:28 PM): hes even more immature now

HerroWaru (9:15:31 PM): Whos this guy.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:31 PM): i don't like him

HerroWaru (9:15:34 PM): Your ex?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:34 PM): chris

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:36 PM): yeah

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:15:40 PM): i don't like him anymore

HerroWaru (9:15:44 PM): Okayy....

HerroWaru (9:15:48 PM): We established that.

HerroWaru (9:15:52 PM): Calm down man.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:00 PM): hahah sorry

HerroWaru (9:16:05 PM): Why are you stupid?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:22 PM): because

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:25 PM): he doesn't love me

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:31 PM): and he cheated on me

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:33 PM): i don't want that again for myself

HerroWaru (9:16:43 PM): Who did? Alex?!?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:45 PM): and alex loves me more than any guy has, and he treats me right

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:46 PM): noo

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:16:48 PM): chris did

HerroWaru (9:16:50 PM): oh.

HerroWaru (9:17:02 PM): But you said you were havn doubts abt Alex.

HerroWaru (9:17:12 PM): Like, you couldnt have a conversation.

HerroWaru (9:17:23 PM): Don't stay w. him just cause he likes you.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:17:26 PM): well

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:17:28 PM): no

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:17:29 PM): i know

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:17:33 PM): i love him though

HerroWaru (9:17:36 PM): Lots of guys could rly rly like you, you know?

HerroWaru (9:17:44 PM): I don't think you do. :/

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:03 PM): he's been making more of an effort to be a better bf

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:03 PM): i love him

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:03 PM): i know that

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:03 PM): and thats all that matters

HerroWaru (9:18:14 PM): Sometimes, at least 2 me, it seems like your trying to convince yourself that you love him.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:23 PM): whatever

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:29 PM): idk how to prove to u that i do

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:18:52 PM): you just have to take my word for it

HerroWaru (9:18:58 PM): You don't have to. I'm just saying. Cause I mean, your my friend, and I dun want you 2 get hurt.

HerroWaru (9:19:07 PM): Cause mybe he doesn't like you exactly how you think.

HerroWaru (9:19:11 PM): I know what that's like.

HerroWaru (9:19:23 PM): And you said he's geting into drgs, and well you can;t have that.

HerroWaru (9:19:40 PM): Cause what happens, is he starts to like the drugs more then he likes you.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:19:47 PM): i do drugs myself though

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:19:47 PM): thatd be hyproctirical

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:19:47 PM): *hypocritical

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:19:48 PM): well weed

HerroWaru (9:19:50 PM): And you lie to yourself to make it kind of go away.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:19:52 PM): thats all

HerroWaru (9:19:53 PM): What?!

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:20:01 PM): yeah

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:20:01 PM): like a month ago

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:20:10 PM): and again 2 weeks aog

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:20:10 PM): *ago

HerroWaru (9:20:14 PM): That dsnt count and you know it.

HerroWaru (9:20:30 PM): I mean, he'll get to the point that he is constnly thinking about drgs and doing them.

HerroWaru (9:20:42 PM): Not just smoking, but like pills and snorting thm.

HerroWaru (9:20:55 PM): You will be like, that one fable.

HerroWaru (9:21:08 PM): You put a frog in a tub filled w/ cool water.

HerroWaru (9:21:33 PM): And slowly the water gets warmer and warmer, but the frg don't notice it because he's just adjusting to the graduale changes.

HerroWaru (9:21:56 PM): And then the water starts to boil, and before the frog even notices that he's boiling, he's alrdy dead.

HerroWaru (9:21:58 PM): You know?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:22:29 PM): that was a month ago too

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:22:29 PM): he hasnt done that since

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:22:29 PM): sure

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:22:29 PM): but i don't control him, and i don't want to

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:22:32 PM): as long as i know when and where he does things, i don't care

HerroWaru (9:22:58 PM): I mean, that's how drug addicts say. That it just snowballs up and turns into such a big problm, and it's too late when they realize there mistake.

HerroWaru (9:23:03 PM): You should a little.

HerroWaru (9:23:22 PM): If you don't want to be worrying abt him constantly, or him hurting himself, then you havev to say somthing.

HerroWaru (9:23:33 PM): This is different then changing someone's personlity.

HerroWaru (9:23:50 PM): He will lie, though.
I don't think your really getting it.

HerroWaru (9:24:03 PM): Ppl who do drugs, they will lie to anyone so they can do the drugs.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:03 PM): but he hasn't done anything in a month, hes not an ADDICT dammit

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:06 PM): keena is

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:17 PM): he just does things occasionally w. his friends

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:18 PM): OCCASIONALLY

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:28 PM): and i don't have a problem with that

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:24:39 PM): keena did things once a day AT LEAST

HerroWaru (9:24:51 PM): W/ Kyle, even though he wasn't a drg addict and he was just thinknig about it, he was thinking about it behind my back. Luckily I caught up with him before he had a chance to do anything.

HerroWaru (9:24:59 PM): But he CAN BE an addict.

HerroWaru (9:25:04 PM): Like I said, it's graduale.

HerroWaru (9:25:10 PM): You try it, then you think about it.

HerroWaru (9:25:17 PM): And then you want some more becaue you like it.

HerroWaru (9:25:58 PM): Before you know it, he's doing drugs once a week. Then once every few days. He doesn't notice something's wrong, because it's just slowly workinng up. You don't notice anything wrong cuz you don't want to.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:12 PM): he past that stage. he did alot in his freshman and sophomore year, then got caught and hasn't done anything alot since then. he told his mom AND ME that he realized he has responsibilities now and he can't go around fucking up his life

HerroWaru (9:26:29 PM): Same thing goes with you.
You wouldn't be hanging out w/ Keena's crowed unless you were with alex, and now your smking pot.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:35 PM): omg

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:41 PM): the first time i smoked weed

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:44 PM): was with bailey

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:51 PM): and shes not even friends with keen

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:26:52 PM): a

HerroWaru (9:26:59 PM): Kenana's her dealer.. Was anyway.

HerroWaru (9:27:32 PM): I saw her give drugs to her and Carianne several times. They talk.

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:27:33 PM): no, the first time, we got it from this kid allen

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:27:39 PM): i know

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:27:41 PM): so

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:27:46 PM): she can talk to whoever she wants

HerroWaru (9:27:59 PM): still. Don't you think there's smthing wrong if your doin drugs?

HerroWaru (9:28:05 PM): Do you WANT to end up like Kenana?

MUSICisLIFE703 (9:28:49 PM): no. i control myself. i know that doing drugs will screw up my life, but i honestly dont see anything wrong with doing maybe once or twice a month with some friends.

HerroWaru (9:29:10 PM): Do you think she meant to screw up her life?
Do you think ANY druggie is set on screwing up their life?

HerroWaru (9:29:37 PM): Once or twice a month with turn into once a week and every couple days,
As I said.

MUSICisLIFE703 signed off at 9:31:23 PM.

musicislife703 is offline and will receive your IMs when signing back in.

She signed off then.
She's just angry cause I made a point.
And cause I'm persisstant.

Her loss. I was just trying to help, and she knows it.

x-posted to my prvt. jrnl.

--
Kyo Birthday Party tmrow yay!!

008. ~King Kong

2008-02-12T23:34:10Z

I got an hour of sleep last night, and 3 hours the night before.

No matter how hard I tried to fall asleep, I couldn't do it. I don't know why.

So after that, the next fail thing was History. There is this new kid, he's huge and fat and ugly and creepy. I am actually scared of this guy who now sits behind me, because my seat got moved in front of an empty one. He came walking along (I don't think you can call what this guy does 'walking'. It's more like wobbling and trying to create holes in the floor) and sits in the empty seat behind me. I enjoyed where I was moved too for a whole two days before sunshine came along. When he did, I was sitting so far up that my butt was barely on the chair and I was sqashed against my desk. I felt like the fat slob would pull out a knife and like, stab me in the back and then twist the knife and break my spine. He's that creepy.

Me and Molly made a great visualization when he was sitting at the Black Table near us (we call it that cause it's the only brown table in the cafeteria, and also the only table that no one sits at cause it's me and Molly's spot). Like, imagine a normal neighborhood, houses lines up, lawns cut real nice, cars parked neatly in the lot. Your looking down the street and standing in the middle of the street, and the horizon is right in front of you. The sunset makes the sky look yellow, and the houses look black. Suddenly, this big, fat guy comes waddling down the street, ruining the Kodak scene, and making the ground quake. People scream and run out of their houses sheilding their faces, as big fat kid steps on lawns, gardens, and houses, ruining them.

That's how I feel when I see this guy.

So anyway, the girl who sits in front of me wasn't here today, so I sat in her seat, leaving an empty desk between me and King Kong. I thought it was all good, but the minute I sit down, I can feel fatass moving around in his seat, his feet hitting the desk in front of him, and that desk hitting mine. HE CAN NOT SIT STILL. And it doesn't exactly help that the chairs are connected to the desk, and there isn't much room for someone his size to fit. So he was CONSTANTLY moving, and I felt my desk move along with it. Several times through out the class my papers were actually knocked off my desk from the SHEER FORCE of this fat slob kicking and moving around. We had a test on Rome, and it took me forever to finish, because I can't focus when something is distracting me, and it is CERTAINLY distracting to have the World's Largest Man sitting two desks behind you and moving around so much that you can't focus on anything else. I turned around more then once and gave him that death glare I do. People who know me irl know that look very well, and the sheer power of it. I generally save that look for people who are annoying me, or people who give me that snobbish look. They usually back off. But this guy can't take a hint, and I swear if I had a gun at that moment and shot him, he wouldn't have even felt it. He's HUGE. And I have to deal with it.

Sitting near freaky Elaine and obnoxious 'no srsly I am gay' Aaron is heaven compared to this guy.

Now I hate to go to my favorite class because I'm scared/annoyed/disctracted/DISGUSTED by this thing I can't even call a HUMAN BEING that sits behind me and probably imagines me without my clothes off. I DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE. I CAN'T REMEMBER MUCH ABOUT JULIUS CAESAR, EVEN THOUGH I LOVE LEARNING ABOUT CAESAR. I am so distracted and I hate it.

Once that class FINALLY ended, on my way to science is when the last bad thing happened. I was walking with Molly, minding my own business, and someone throws something at me. I grab my hair where someone threw something and felt to make sure it wasn't stuck, and there was nothing there. WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE THROWING THINGS AT ME. I DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU.

And then less then 5 seconds after that, some other guy (purposefully) slams his hip at me, and I had to dodge that and fell into Molly.

What is with people. I hate my school.

And I have had this constant headache for the past month. No joke. I can't even listen to music while I'm on the computer cause it gives me a headache. And my headphones are always quiet cause the noise hurts my ear.

Everything sucks.

But this weekend, if it goes as planned it will not suck.

Molly is (hopefully) coming over and bringing Brokeback Mountain, and we will watch that and watch some Diru DVD's maybe, and we'll bake a cake to celebrate Kyo's birthday. Also Kao and Shinya's birthday, but mostly Kyo cause we love him. Maybe we can have a sleeover. I really hope so. Kyo party must last through the night.

Then over the weekend my mom might take me to the mall for sweatpants and maybe a sweater if I beg enough, and I need clothes omg.

My kitty is so cute. Miss Girl.

Last night I heard her crying outside my room, so I open the door and she;s running to my parents room with a stuffed mouse, and she jumps on the bed, drops the mouse, and runs back downstairs to get another. She's so adorable. At night if she wants to play with her toys, she goes downstairs and gets a toy out of her box, then runs upstairs to my parents room where she puts the toys in between my mom and dad. She gets like, 12 toys up there before she gives up and falls asleep. It's so cute.

EW IT'S ONLY TUESDAY D: I WANT WEEKEND.

007. ~omg. General Hospital is on.

2008-02-11T00:05:21Z

I love soap operas. Really and truely. They just make my life seem just THAT much simplier. I love it.

Okay, so I guess half the time I go to post something I have no idea what I'm gonna say. I just sit down and start typing. I guess it's kinda cool, cause the posts end up being like, 7 more paragraphs then you care to read.

Oh! Oh! Who saw Miley Cyrus' panty pictures?

I did. I am so glad I found them xD
I also heard that Zac Efron is gay, and I was totally right about his and V's relationship being just a publicity stunt. I don't think Zacy-pooh is really gay, though.

Who watches As The World Turns?
Well, I know you do. Remember when whatshisface, the cute queer boy, he went and pushed his mom and she fell down the stairs and she fell for like, longer then I bothered to watch. I mean, when your legs lock from standing there in the doorway waiting for the commerical break, there is something wrong. Especially when the lady is falling down the stairs for the last 3 minutes of the tv, where cute guy could be dramtically confessing his love for some random guy he randomly meets while walking down the street to go to his girlfriend's house to break up with her. But, no. Instead we have to watch a woman fall down 20 stairs in slow motion for 3 minutes of our lives. We get it. She fell. Let's move on with our lives

AND GUESS WHAT. HERE IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I WILL EVER HAVE TO SAY, BRAGGING-WISE.

Molly S is having second thoughts about her relationship with her illegal sex-partner.
I CALLED IT SO HARD. I SAID KYO'S BIRTHDAY, AND THAT IS THE 16TH. THIS SATURDAY. OMG.

Okay. So she comes up to me during lunch, and is talking with Keena and I about how she is thinking about her ex. She doesn't like her ex, she said, but she keeps being reminded me of him. I told her that she is probably thinking that he is a better kisser then Alex, and Keena agreed with me. She said that it's hard to have a conversation with him. I told her to end it if she wanted to, but she convinces me that SHE LOVES HIM.

uh-huh.

So anyway, after lunch in the hall she told me that Keena said to just let the relationship just sorta die down so they can still be friends. I told her that the longer she holds on to him, the more attatched he'll get, and the harder it will be to end it and the less likely it will be that they could be friends afterwards. I was right. She said that she'll break up with him, but not THAT DAY.

And I doubt she did it yet. But she will. I can sense it, that she wants to break up with him.

So HA.

I spent my day reading Jonathan Brandis interviews, and it was kinda fun. I started crying only time, and I usually cry almost the whole time. I miss that guy.

006. ~SuperBull-shit

2008-02-05T00:05:11Z

As all of you already know, the Patriots lost the Superbowl. 29 seconds on the clock, and the Giants scored. They lost 17-14. I am devestated. I will never ever recover from it. It was almost a perfect season.

Yeah. It did in fact ruin my week, and possibly my life.

Anyway, if Mary tries to pretend she's a gay-o, I might have to kill her. GSA + Being creepy stalker DOES NOT EQUAL lezb0.
Not now, not ever.
Her and Oliver need to die. Or start dating so we can all move on with our lives and realize THERE ARE NOT REALLY ANY QUEERS IN OUR SCHOOL.
Bisexual people, sure, but NO QUEERS. And half the bi people are actually straight.

Who else thinks that Miley Cyrus is kind of a babe? Yeah me too :O Only a little, though. Almost not at all. But in like, 3-4 years from now, just remember that you saw it here first.

Eh, let's see. More wonderfully amazing things I need to share with you.

Oh, the guy who isn't the middle hair guy and who isn't the curly haired guy in the Jonas Brothers, he is now having curly hair. And I decided that the three of them are having some weird relationship, and I am slightly scared.

~~Damn it, why do I keep seeing the Giants on commercials, I KNOW they won, and now I would like to forget about it kthnx.~~

Am I the only one who thinks Jonathan Brandis should come back from the dead, turn 16 again, and play Billy Bloom in the movie that isn't made but totally should be, Freak Show? omg yes.
Then Seth Green could turn 17 and be Flip Kelly. Hellllllz yeah.

YO, BILLY, I DON'T KNOW.
NO, NO, NO.

Oh, you very tes, Missa Lejah.

005. ~So long, no care.

2008-01-24T01:41:14Z

I am clearly neglecting this journal. But that's alright. Not my loss.

Anyway, because of the recent death of Heath Ledger, Molly and I have decided to round up all of our favorite people and keep them safe. They have a bad habit of dying.

So, here's MY list, the one that is really important:

Mkay. Dir en grey. The pygmie needs me.

Seth Green. I mean, c'mon. Look at him. Can you say babe?

Other people (I'm just too lazy to get phoros):

James St. James.
He's, well, fabulous, and I love his books and he's a funny man and he's 40 and gay and a drag queen. What's not to love about this guy?

Micheal Alig.
So, okay, he did kill his drug dealer. And yeah, he is in prison. And sure, maybe he did do drugs and become leader of the "club kids", king of New York's nightlife. But I love him anyway.

Toshiya.
He's his own category. Who else is gonna sleep with all the desperate people? AMERICA NEEDS HIM!!!

I'm done.

004. ~The Jonas Brothers

2008-01-19T03:20:47Z

Welll.... I pretty much DEFINATLY failed the art exam. WAY TO GO, SHAYNA.

Anyway, who knows who the Jonas brothers are?
I see you there in the back. You can't hide behind that chair. I know everyone knows them. In the words of James St. James, "those little cum-muffins" are freaking everywhere.

...Well that's it.

003. ~I fuh-fuh-fail.

2008-01-17T22:48:00Z

Trufax guys. I FAIL CAUSE I STUTTER IN CLASS AND PEOPLE THINK ITS FUNNY TO TEASE ME FOR IT.
It's not guys. No rly. It's not. Not not not. It was like, only two times likes Jesus, get OVER it. Then when Cassidy called my name to see my grade, Matt went "De-De-Dedonato" and everyone was highly amused by this biz.

C'MON. "PLEASE" IS A DIFFICULT WORD TO SAY SOMETIMES. AND SO IS "POLYTHEISTIC". AND ANYTHING ELSE WITH THE "UH" SOUND IN IT. STFU.

Oh, and listen to this sport's fans: Keena cut off her bracelet. I ALMOST KILLED HER SHE MIGHT GO TO JAIL AHJFDGFSAKJD. But now I am upset cause if she does I might not speak to her until 45 days when she gets back. And I'm not gonna sleep well tonight cause of it. Okay I might, but I'm still upset.

I think I'll ask my mom to take me to the doctor about teh asthma. Breathing is difficult for me and I might need medication.

We bettterrrr not miss school tomorrow cause wehave exams and adfksad Okay I guess it'll be alright if we miss it but a 2 hour delay will KILL ME.

Hopefully tomorrow Living Jonathan Brandis will have been a dumb little pretty boy and have forgotten Other Molly's outburst. He IS a pretty boy. Really. He IS.

002. ~This is what a sucky day looks like.

2008-01-16T21:54:39Z

My outfit has been insulted twice today. It was nothing outrageous or cheap or anything. I was wearing the dark blue jeans I wear almost every day and a white long sleeved Abercrombie and Fitch shirt. I didn't look terrible for someone who is constantly wearing the same clothes because she can't afford new ones. I speak no lies, folks. Two people (neither of them lifeforms higher then fungi) had enough nerve to tell me my outfit was gay or I looked like a spoilt rich prep.

And it all happened in the time span of 5 minutes. Yeah, I know. After Reilly (how do you even spell that?) said something was as gay as Matt's outfit or something, I turned around and he told me my outfit was gay. I was like umn no. And he was like "No, it's actually gay." and some random foriegner who probably knows only knows six words in the English language (Can I ride in the trunk?) agreed with him. I was like Oh, so that's how it is.

Then, (here's the good one), CAMRON of all people told me that I looked like a rich prep who just came from the mall and he laughed and Keena laughed and I was like Oh no you didn't. Cause honestly, they both look like they just crawled out of a fucking dumpster and then got hit by a car and fell into a sewer before deciding it'd be fun to go dumpster diving. Neither of them has showered in at least two weeks, and I have a terrible sense of smell and yet Keena reaked so badly that I literally couldn't walk right next to her in the hall.
Having THEM tell me that my outfit was ugly was just plain wrong. That's the second outfit that got teased that I wore that WASN'T EVEN THAT FUCKING BAD. Ugh. People these days.

And Molly... wonderful Molly... decided to SHOUT the name of a certain person who looks like a certain actor who I happen to love very much, and DECLAIRE in thr loudest voice she could build up that TIM ISN'T A GIRLY BOY after I was talking about how all the guys I dated were girly or girly looking. It wouldn't have been so bad since he has a common name if he wasn't SITTING RIGHT THERE and couldn't hear her SCREAM this. And in fact, he is a girly boy. Just throwing that out there.

On the subject of being made a fool in front of Living Jonathan Brandis, Matt and a few other WONDERFUL people decided to call Rielly half gay, and I laughed like a loon at this since it was like being called half black or something. So I'm laughing, and then Matt (or one of the other wonderful people) screamed very loudly that I CAN'T LAUGH ABOUT THAT, BECAUSE I'M HALF-GAY AS WELL. So way to go, guys. I'm a total fool now. And the gay comment about my clothes topped off the list of Reasons Why Living Jonathan Brandis Probably Thinks Shayna Is A Total Fag Not Worth Dating And With No Fashion Sense.

YEAH. WONDERFUL DAY. And guess what, I'm failing MATH, SCIENCE, FRENCH, and possibly HISTORY. It's not even funny, since now my parents are TWICE as strict about me getting bad grades (everything lower then a B is bad, and even a B isn't acceptable) so I'm going to get killed. I did all the extra work I possibly could but I doubt it could change an F or a D into a B, or even a high C. So yeah. If I disappear from teh interwebz for a few days/weeks/months, that is why.

In other news, Molly let me borrow her mom's Rocky Horror Picture Show book and I'll read that and some more of IT tonight after I get offline. I like to read.

001. ~Intro.

2008-01-16T01:31:23Z

Welcome to hi_yo_silver, my (250km)'s public journal. I decided that I needed a public journal, as keeping a private one is difficult for my friends who don't have livejournals and won't sign up for one no matter how many times I ask them too. Maybe it's a difficult thing or something. Who knows. But then of course I'll have to add, that the things I say on this journal will be less personal and much more vague then what I write on my private one. If you have a livejournal account, go ahead and add me (250km). Don't add me, however, if you'll start yelling at me for writing mean stuff about you. Cause I can guarentee that every person I am friends with (save for a few) have been talked about negatively on their.

Anyway, if you want to know about me you can go ahead and check out either (or both) livejournal profiles I have written. Those being here for 250km and here for hi_yo_silver, incase your a bit slower then your friends.

So, friends and neighbors... now you have it. Public journal.

~~hi mom.~~